Hi Falcon63,
I've only made a brief perusal of this thread after reading your original post, but it doesn't seem like anyone here has recognized yet that you are a budding reactionary. This is especially unfortunate as you don't even seem to realize it yourself.
To answer the question you pose in the thread title: No, you are not crazy. Over the thousands of years that people have engaged in political philosophy, a number of incredibly intelligent and knowledgeable individuals have reached conclusions similar to those you have here, and they have explored these ideas in depth and at great length. Many would argue that Aristotle was a monarchist.
Mencius Moldbug has outlined an ideology called
formalism (yes, you are supposed to be clicking the links) that I think you might find quite fetching.
Some nice fellow has organized many of Mr. Moldbug's writings
here; I would strongly advise you to scroll down that page a time or two, look for links with titles that sound interesting to you, and read them.
You can watch a video of him speaking
here.
Lest you get the idea that the reactionary movement consists of just one man, perhaps it would behoove you to read
The Dark Enlightenment, by Nick Land.
Or perhaps it would behoove you to read Federico's blog,
Studiolo. Like everything else I'm linking to, this is a bit long, and it may seem overwhelming, but at least a passing familiarity with his analysis of
reactionary philosophy is simply indispensable to anyone who wants to be taken seriously in a conversation about politics, in my opinion.
If you follow the first link in the post above, you'll find yourself reading an outsider's perspective of the movement. Scott Alexander is hardly a reactionary, let alone a libertarian. Hell, he wrote
The Non-Libertarian FAQ (aka Why I Hate Your Freedom). But he's a smart guy, and he makes quite a few
interesting observations.
This post is becoming overloaded with links and rabbit trails, so I'll cut it short now. Hope this helps!