Let me get this straight. You are saying that because you are exercising your faith you believe god's existence is truth. I get that. But to me that is a completely irrational statement...you are saying what you believe to be true...BUT that doesn't make it true and that's my point. That is what I mean by "wake-up." It's just like all the 9-11 truthers out there..they believe 9-11 was an inside job...BUT do we really know it was? Again, believing something is true doesn't make it true...
Part of "growing up" means entertaining two totally conflicting points of view. The fact that one cannot prove the existence of god doesn't provide evidence that god exists...
Then I most be growing up because I have entertained the two totally conflicting points of view. I am human, and sometimes I doubt the existence of God. For example, I have often prayed for Whitney Houston. I have asked God to help her with her life. It seems that God ignored my prayers. However, it appears that she had a stronger faith than I do. The last song she sang publicly was "Jesus Loves Me." And in her 2009 CD she included a song called "I Look To You." "You" meaning God. So, perhaps my prayers have been answered. Perhaps God gave her a strong faith.
When I doubt the existence of God, I look at creation. Except for man, there is no difference between the creation narrative in Genesis and creation today. There is still light and darkness, called day and night. The sun, moon and stars are still there. We still have plant life, animal life, insect life, etc., all as it has been created.
I will stipulate that that isn't proof as such. But it is enough proof needed for a person that has a faith toward creationism.
But, you have faith as well. You believe there is no God, yet you have no proof. So, what you believe is not necessarily truth either. Or do you have empirical proof that there is no God?