Life has not been kind lately

I cried several times reading this. I wish I had something useful to say. Just...

My life has followed the same trajectory (sans the death). When we are told all our lives that we are no good, we can't see how strong we really are. You are stronger than you knew, and you can see that If you look at everything. I won't tell you everything will get better, that would be a lie; life is a game of whack a mole, and we are the mole. But who knows, it could get better. Either way, it's never too late to not make things worse.

Peace
 
All I can say is that every heartache, every adversity, and every failure in life, caries with it the seed of an equivalent or greater benefit.


Its not always clear to us, however during the time we go through these things.
 
He is crying out for help if anyone has any info on this person they need to do something to help him. Does this site capture IP addresses ? That might be a start.
 
He is crying out for help if anyone has any info on this person they need to do something to help him. Does this site capture IP addresses ? That might be a start.

I sent an email yesterday, but he hasn't logged back in since his post.
 
Call this number right now.

1-800-273-8255

Then continue to talk to all of us here.

Checking out would dishonor the lioness you still mourn for.

Called and spoke with someone for a few hours that night. It took me off the edge, but I'm not out of the woods yet. I'm still not eating more than a few hundred calories a day or sleeping for a couple hours at a time. Frequently waking up drenched in sweat, too. I'm also toggling from grief to sadness to despair to anger in quick intervals of time. My focus is non-existent. [excised] If I drive, it's erratic and risky - I typically drive at or below speed limits, and brake gingerly.

I'm living in Orange County, as I have since summer. A friend in customs has offered a place for me in San Diego to get things sorted out, and I may take him up on that. Getting laid off and left cold reopened the wounds and scars left from the life I was to live with my wife. Trying to start out, again, on a career path that could take half a decade or more - this would put me in my 40s - is difficult enough, but now I'm faced with doing it without the comfort, security, and love of my wife. While also trying to simply make ends meet for myself in the meantime.
 
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Called and spoke with someone for a few hours that night. It took me off the edge, but I'm not out of the woods yet. I'm still not eating more than a few hundred calories a day or sleeping for a couple hours at a time. Frequently waking up drenched in sweat, too. I'm also toggling from grief to sadness to despair to anger in quick intervals of time. My focus is non-existent. If I drive, it's erratic and risky - I typically drive at or below speed limits, and brake gingerly.

I'm living in Orange County, as I have since summer. A friend in customs has offered a place for me in San Diego to get things sorted out, and I may take him up on that. Getting laid off and left cold reopened the wounds and scars left from the life I was to live with my wife. Trying to start out, again, on a career path that could take half a decade or more - this would put me in my 40s - is difficult enough, but now I'm faced with doing it without the comfort, security, and love of my wife. While also trying to simply make ends meet for myself in the meantime.

Your post had me worried you might hurt yourself. I am glad you are still kicking.
 
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Called and spoke with someone for a few hours that night. It took me off the edge, but I'm not out of the woods yet. I'm still not eating more than a few hundred calories a day or sleeping for a couple hours at a time. Frequently waking up drenched in sweat, too. I'm also toggling from grief to sadness to despair to anger in quick intervals of time. My focus is non-existent. [Edited] If I drive, it's erratic and risky - I typically drive at or below speed limits, and brake gingerly.

I'm living in Orange County, as I have since summer. A friend in customs has offered a place for me in San Diego to get things sorted out, and I may take him up on that. Getting laid off and left cold reopened the wounds and scars left from the life I was to live with my wife. Trying to start out, again, on a career path that could take half a decade or more - this would put me in my 40s - is difficult enough, but now I'm faced with doing it without the comfort, security, and love of my wife. While also trying to simply make ends meet for myself in the meantime.
It's good to see you are still with us.

:)
 
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Called and spoke with someone for a few hours that night. It took me off the edge, but I'm not out of the woods yet. I'm still not eating more than a few hundred calories a day or sleeping for a couple hours at a time. Frequently waking up drenched in sweat, too. I'm also toggling from grief to sadness to despair to anger in quick intervals of time. My focus is non-existent. If I drive, it's erratic and risky - I typically drive at or below speed limits, and brake gingerly.

I'm living in Orange County, as I have since summer. A friend in customs has offered a place for me in San Diego to get things sorted out, and I may take him up on that. Getting laid off and left cold reopened the wounds and scars left from the life I was to live with my wife. Trying to start out, again, on a career path that could take half a decade or more - this would put me in my 40s - is difficult enough, but now I'm faced with doing it without the comfort, security, and love of my wife. While also trying to simply make ends meet for myself in the meantime.

I'm glad you logged back in to talk with us.

Maybe a CA member could reach out to you.

In any case, keep fighting...the night is darkest just before the dawn.

Keep checking in, keep us all posted...
 
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Called and spoke with someone for a few hours that night. It took me off the edge, but I'm not out of the woods yet. I'm still not eating more than a few hundred calories a day or sleeping for a couple hours at a time. Frequently waking up drenched in sweat, too. I'm also toggling from grief to sadness to despair to anger in quick intervals of time. My focus is non-existent.
I'm living in Orange County, as I have since summer. A friend in customs has offered a place for me in San Diego to get things sorted out, and I may take him up on that. Getting laid off and left cold reopened the wounds and scars left from the life I was to live with my wife. Trying to start out, again, on a career path that could take half a decade or more - this would put me in my 40s - is difficult enough, but now I'm faced with doing it without the comfort, security, and love of my wife. While also trying to simply make ends meet for myself in the meantime.

I think I would try to view the change in work and scenery as a positive if it were me to try and focus on something else for awhile . It may be good for you . Let us know if you need to talk .
 
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I don’t know you from Adam, which may be appealing when I say, PM me if you need someone to talk to who is thousands of miles removed.

The human experience oscillates from tragedy to triumph on a timeline of its own making. I pray for you.
 
Trying to start out, again, on a career path that could take half a decade or more - this would put me in my 40s - is difficult enough, but now I'm faced with doing it without the comfort, security, and love of my wife. While also trying to simply make ends meet for myself in the meantime.

I don’t know you from Adam, which may be appealing when I say, PM me if you need someone to talk to who is thousands of miles removed.

The human experience oscillates from tragedy to triumph on a timeline of its own making. I pray for you.

What ghengis86 said...

I was 30 when I met My Wife. and I met her as a fugitive. Nationwide warrants for arrest,, Assumed Armed and Dangerous,,

I have owned two homes since then..

I am Contemplating my 40 year Anniversary as an Outlaw.

Been married 57years concurrently.. 32+25

It can turn around,,or take some other direction ,,,

I am 62 and contemplating what to do next myself.
 
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Tried PMing you my cell but:

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Reach out if you want and I’ll find a way to connect
 
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