I think I was given them before I even knew what depression was. I was probably 10 maybe when I was prescribed zoloft. I've also been on prozac, paxil, viibryd, etc. I've never been on any of them for very long, much to the chagrin of my parents. The sexual side effects were always intolerable to me, especially as a teenage boy. The longest I've stayed on any of them was wellbutrin, since it didn't have that problem.
I've been on clonazepam since 2005. I have to take 4mgs a day for it to work. I've tryed to taper off of it once, but the timing is bad. I was and still am going through some stressful shit with my family. I've just been in hell since 2011 when my dad died from cancer. My mom has a fiance and I hate him. My oldest sister has gone crazy. I really wouldn't mind if I just dropped dead.
Sounds pretty rough.
Maybe you should work on getting far away from your mom and her apparently shitty fiancé.
I think that life gets better as you develop a more positive routine.
I don't even think that meditation is really necessary.
I find that video games kind of keep me from going crazy at times.